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24 June 2010 @ 03:58 am

I am 5’4 or shorter.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different colour.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I’ve had braces.
I wear glasses and/or contacts.

I’d get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.

I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.

Family/Home life:
I’ve sworn at my parent(s).
I’ve been kicked out of the house.

I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I’ve lost a child.

I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve snorted while laughing.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I’ve had my pants rip in public.

I was born with a disease/impairment.
I’ve had stitches.
I’ve broken a bone.
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I’ve had surgery.
I’ve had chicken pox.

I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
I’ve been to Canada.
I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
I’ve been to Japan.
I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I’ve been to Spain.
I’ve been to Africa.
I’ve been to France.

I’ve been lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I’ve been to a casino.
I’ve been skydiving.
I’ve gone skinny dipping.
I’ve played spin the bottle.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a play.
I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
I’ve played chicken.
I’ve played a prank on someone.
I’ve ridden in a taxi.
I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I’ve eaten Sushi.
I’ve been snowboarding.

I’ve gone on a blind date.
I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I’ve been divorced.
I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

I’ve had a crush on someone of the same gender.
I’ve kissed a member of the same gender.

I’ve had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve had sex outdoors.
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.

I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.

I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.

I’ve run a red light.
I’ve been suspended from school.
I’ve witnessed a crime.

I’ve been in a fist fight.
I’ve been arrested.
I’ve shoplifted.

I’ve consumed alcohol.
I’ve smoked a cigarette.
I've smoked pot.
I regularly drink.
I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
I've done hard drugs.
I’ve been addicted to an illegal drug.
25 July 2009 @ 09:53 pm


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19 July 2009 @ 01:52 pm
So, I went to Penn State, came back, and have been vegetating for a little while now.

And now I'm using a cut in this entry because it's so long.Collapse )
Current Location: Magical Pony Land
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: David Bowie
19 June 2009 @ 06:20 pm

I have suddenly become addicted to browsing LJ without actively participating myself (except for commenting when snagging icons ♥).  It's slightly annoying, given that in a few days I won't be able to log on (or at least browse around for hours like I have been) because of my trip to Penn State.  Which I'm still both dreading and looking forward too.  So I'm dreadwarding it?  Yeah.  I'm dreadwarding it.

I'm in the process of trying to figure out how to make a layout for my journal and I'm hating it so far.  I really dislike having to design something while working around preexisting elements and it doesn't help that most LJ layouts all look the same but in varying colors to me.  Guh.  Squarish, minimalistic designs are just not my cup of tea. 

My laptop is still wavering somewhere between limbo and death at the moment.  As usual, I've stolen my sister's incredibly junky and fagtastic Toshiba, whose keyboard is screwed to hell and back and requires the use of an external keyboard.  Anyway - my poor baby is still beat up.  I cleaned the keyboard a few days ago and man, was that thing nasty.  It's a wonder it had even worked at all!  There was so much gunk in there I'm afraid it'll all clump together into some huge gunk-monster of doom, remove itself from the trash, and consume my soul while I'm attempting to put the keys back on and failing miserably at it. D:  Laptop keyboards are so hard to put back together!  The little plastic pieces pop off every single time I try to fix them into their little clips. It's crazy frustrating and also kind of sad that I can't do something as simple as that.  D:

The computer gods have cursed me, as have the gods of gaming.  Why?  My Final Fantasy XII save file was deleted.  I was only at Raithwhal's tomb, had clocked in around 100 hours of gameplay, 99% of which was mindless grinding to level up, and it's all.  gone.  adfjkljklKJASDKLFJ  I'm sure anyone who has put a lot of time into any given activity in vain can sympathize.  ;A;  It's so sad.  This is the third time it's happened.  I don't think I'll ever get to finish the damn game. :<

Speaking of games, I've been trying to find some otome games online but so far have been unsuccessful.   There are tons of visual novels of varying yaoi content, but no dating sims for girls that I can find for download.  And while I do like the ocassional bits of yaoi and shounen-ai, I'm not particularly interested in visual novels of it.

Especially since it tends to be overly gratuitous and cheesy and most times just seems to be PWP.  If there's one thing I dislike, it's sex (or in the less steamy counterparts, cheesy, flowery foreplay) just for the sake of it.  And I can't help imagining that the people behind shounen-ai and yaoi are slobberying fangirls/boys just spewing out whatever they find most kawaii!!1! just to appease their own desires, no matter how silly or unbelievable.   (Then again, maybe I'm just being biased because there's no female character I can identify with to put myself there with the hot 2D guys. ♥ Heh.  Pathetic?  Yes.  But you do it too - admit it. )

So, um.  Otome game search = unsuccessful.  I wish I had the money (or the willpower to save the money) to buy a Japan region PS2 and some Otome games for it.  Oh well.  Maybe someday.

(In the meantime, I need to finish FFXII and then go back and play the rest because I never have.  :A;  Shame on me.)

(I also need to buy and play a multitude of other US-released games before I even think of moving on to foreign ones.  Sigh.)

But I've gotten kind of off track.  Where was I?

Oh.  My laptop.

So, I cleaned the keyboard and have yet to successfully put a key back in, but that's the least of my worries given that it still won't turn on properly.  It powers up for a few second - light's turn on, fan starts to turn - but then it shuts down.  Kapoot.  That's it.  I'm hoping it's something that can be fixed, because I plan on somehow obtaining the money to get it taken to the shop.  I want my baby back. ;A;  And my Photoshop and all of the brushes I have saved, all of the Sims downloads I had...  it's all replacable and unimportant in the grand scheme of things, sure, but it just really sucks if I end up losing it all.  That's a lot of stuff to have to find and download over, assuming I get a new laptop at all. 


Oh well.  Back to my newfound LJ addiction.  I really want to delve right in to joining some roleplays, taking up a bunch of fic challenges and the like, but it'll be useless getting started only to not be able to do a thing for two weeks.  But I don't want to wait.  I'm bouncing off the walls in an LJ frenzy but can't quench my desire for all of these things and it's irritating. ;A; ldsfkalsdfj

Also: money.  Do want.  Need to get a job as soon as I get back from the Journalism workshop.   Need manga, soundtracks, plushies, figures, DVDs, and various other merchandise.  And money.  My materialistic fangirl soul demands it.  :D

I'll try to be a bit more organized with my next entry and have some sort of point to it, but I'm not making any promises.  Rambling about everything and nothing at all is my specialty.

Current Mood: listlesslistless
18 June 2009 @ 08:43 am
Ah, so... it's summer and I've decided to make another attempt at posting regularly again. All of my past attempts have failed, but... whatever. At least I try, right? Right.

My reason for deciding this just now was that I was overwhelmed with a lot of fandom news and the sudden desire to be active on various sites again. And I decided to blog (journal seems a better term) about it to sort my thoughts out. So:

click if you'd like to read my endless rambling on the Naruto (the live action, one of the newer chapters, and general gushing), Avatar (the live action and racial controversy with the actors), my desires (a DSi and a PSP, along with the money to get them), excitement for the two-week long Penn State journalism workshop in a few days, and worries about how insufferably shy I am and how well I'll fair there.Collapse )
Current Location: bed
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: Apres Moi Regina Spektor
17 December 2008 @ 05:43 pm

Two hour delay this morning. And I didn't go to school again today. I'm a retard.

Gonna go to the doctor's tomorrow for a check up and to get something done about this... whatever it is. I sound like a man, I'm having nosebleeds like crazy, and my sinuses are clogged to hell and back, yet the inside of my nose feels as though it's been covered in cement. Weird. AND I SOUND LIKE A MAN. Gah.

Need to finish posters for ETC. Whose meeting I missed today...

I'm rewriting an unfinished FullMetal Alchemist fic, too. I've got maybe... 7k words? I'm aiming to make it just a really long one shot instead of a multi-chaptered fic, though. By estimation, it should be around... 40-50k? Eheh. I'll be able to make a better estimate when I get to planning it out more thoroughly. But it'll be long, and um... hopefully good? Okay, maybe I should split it into two or three parts, but it's still going to essentially be a one shot and written as such. Nya. Ed/reader as usual, but... maybe a little Ling/reader just because he's awesome and doesn't get enough love?

I swear to the Anime Gods that if FMA2 doesn't pick up after episode 25 and take the manga route this time... I needs me some Ling, stat! It was a shame he wasn't in the first anime, though I understand/know why, so he should definitely be in the second, in all his squinty, taller-than-Ed glory. Plus, I SO wanna hear him going all, "I'm staa~rving, fee~d me~ D:" And the manga is just generally so much more awesome. I loved the anime and all, but... THE. MANGA. You cannot deny it and its awesomeness. You know, Envy's a little crazier, the Sloth is so much more cuddly, there's more Hohenheim, and... Olivia Mira Armstrong. I'd definitely bend my straight for her. <3 Haha. Oh, oh, and more history between Roy and Riza! Huzzah! There are just so many things, way too many to mention. I guess all I can do is hope~

So: no school, posters, fic, FMA2/FMA manga... what else?

Oh, more fanfiction-y stuff:

I'm writing a Lavi one-shot. A long one. A cliche one. But hopefully still an enjoyable one to read? Not gonna spare any details on that one.

I'm plotting out a Death Note Zombie Apocalypse CYOA. Pretty much complete crack. And I'm making a lot of different paths and options and outcomes. I'm really gonna go all out on this. But the planning... gah. So much planning to be done! But in the end, it'll be worth it, I think. So far, I've planned to include Matsuda, Light, L, Mello, Near, and Matt. Some of the guys are going to have longer routes, more than one ending, etc. But as of now, I can say one thing for certain: It's really, really AU. And not just because of the zombies. I'm screwing around with ages and times and locations so much for this... I almost hate myself for it. Almost. It'll take place in present day, but the ages will be shifted. Mello, Near, and Matt will be the same ages they'd normally be in 2008, but the other three will be a few years younger. I'm thinking Light will only be a year or two older than Mello. L would be 29 right now, technically, but in the story... perhaps only 25? Matsuda would be, accordingly, 26. And... ZOMBIES. Geez.

I want to write a multi-chaptered Matt fic and have a stab at characterizing him. :D

I have nothing interesting to end this with, so... BRAAAAAAIIIINS.

Current Mood: boredbored
16 December 2008 @ 04:48 pm

Okay, so I lied just a little. I didn't update yesterday, obviously, but I am now! I'm just... half a day late. But still, it's better than nothing, right? Look at it this way: I'll be able to better reflect on yesterday's events and write about them more... uh, reflectively. Or something. I forgot what my point was halfway through typing that sentence....

Anyway!Collapse )

Current Location: bed
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: WAT.
15 December 2008 @ 12:25 am
I'm going to begin updating this.  Really.

I either get lazy, feel that I have nothing interesting to stay, or think that whatever I post is just going to be random ramblings that no one will care to read so what's the point?  Not that anyone's really reading this either way, but....

Yeah.  I'm going to start posting here, and at my WordPress.  Really.  I'm going to post... stuff.   I need to do something a little more productive than reading manga, watching anime, or listening to music while I stare at the ceiling for hours on end.  I need a life, really, but that's a pretty big step up so I'm going to take small steps.  Step 1: Do something more productive than reading manga, watching anime, or listening to music while I stare at the ceiling for hours on end...   even if those things are good fun.

So I'll chronicle my boring life here.  Or something.  And do some other somethings, too.  Maybe join an RP, get active in some communities, make some graphics.  Hopefully, it doesn't end up consuming me like it usually does and I burn out all interest in it all too quickly, which I do all too often.

Quick run down if you have no clue what I'm talking about -  A lot of times, when I get into something, I get way too into it.  It consumes me.  I do nothing but that single thing, focusing only on that, letting everything else just... rot.    It's like selective autism or Asperger or something. =/  Cases in point:  Gaia, LiveJournal, web design, Anime/Manga, sleeping, drawing, roleplay, etc.  It's hard for me to find balance and control myself.   Then, after a period of being completely and utterly obsessed, I have a burn out  and I lose all interest in that particular thing entirely.  I feel lethargic and drained and I just don't want to do anything at all.  I've been in a period like that for the past few weeks.   Hopefully I can ease out of it without heading in the extreme opposite direction as usual.  Hopefully.

And I'm pretty sure my explanation is really inarticulate and bad, but I don't care.  Um.

So, yeah.  Some things to do:
  • Journaling.
  • Be active in a community or two.
  • Join an RP.  (Note to self: Don't attempt to create one.  You always get far too absorbed and it never works out anyway.)
  • Make icons, layouts.
  • Fanfiction.
  • Minishop at Gaia that I still have to finish making graphics for...
  • Get out of the bedroom.  Even staying downstairs for an extended period of time would be a nice step up.
I'll do an entry tomorrow night sometime, maybe.  Probably.  No - I will make an entry.  I bet my left ass cheek on it.  And I promise it won't be so... so this. -gestures to the above-  Inarticulate and awkward and ditzy and lacking a solid train of thought.


13 September 2008 @ 04:38 am

I'm currently trying to create a layout for my LJ by examining the stylesheets of other layouts and applying what I already know.  (All I really needed to know are the various classes and stuff that LJ uses... like '.comments' or "#content".)

Sorry if the layout is currently blinding you as it is.  That'll be fixed up.  

As of now, I can only say for certain that I have the background 100% done. xD  The top bar is mostly done, except for the top links an various contents I'll be adding.  The rest... well, it'll be changed.  A lot.

To Do:

+Edit entry area.
+a:hover attributes
+header image
+custom moodtheme
+ subject line background
+figure out how to add a custom section (?)

Overall, I'd say I'm... 5% done? Ha.

Until then, I apologize for the seizure-inducing brightness of the page and text.
Current Mood: annoyedadjfdkfj
Current Music: Einstein on the Beach - Counting Crows
21 January 2008 @ 02:29 am
Er, three drabble things? One for each member of Team 7 (/not Kakashi)? Each focusing on one keyword and bearing exactly 100 words?

Yes, this is it.   Well, except for the first one.  It sort of kind of revolves around two characters, instead of the one I was just planning.  Oh well. 8D

See if you can pick out some of the weird phrases I threw in and see if you know what the hell I'm talking about. (Just who am I talking to again?)

Current Location: TUCHIN MAISALF
Current Mood: productiveproductive